Gudnite to u my prince

Thanks for the card..

Unfortunately I wouldn't be able to attend your big day...not that I don't want to..but u'r right..and ur friends were right..I would just cry and make a fool of myself..I don't want to ruin your big day and become the silly Julia Roberts in that movie My best friend's wedding.. :(

I am hurting myself more now...It's been ages and the feeling still won't go away...How am I going to survive the days to come? Arghhh...its so tiring...! Its so tiring to keep on telling myself that I would be OK...time will heal things...what if I'm not OK? What if I end up feeling sad for the rest of my life? Gosshh!! That's so sad and scary!

...I'm so lost without u....