Wednesday, November 26, 2008


My parents are going to Mecca to perform Haj tomorrow..

Sending them off to Kelana Jaya at 5am this morning..they have to register at 7.30am and their flight will be at 11.30am..

Ya Allah...

Semoga mama and papa dapat menunaikan Haji dgn baik..dapat Haji mabrur...Didoakan juga mama and papa sihat and dpt mengerjakan ibadah dgn khusyuk and may Allah bless you both..Also I pray that both of you selamat pergi dan selamat pulang ke tanah air..Amin..Amin..Amin...

Tolong doakan utk Ara and the others jugak ya...

Sunday, November 23, 2008


I haven't seen U for 5 days..tried to contact U..but responses so far has just been.."Ha ah" or "OK.."

Looks like U already organized out Ur priorities and I'm not on the list..maybe?

No feelings can describe how I'm feeling now...

If we're just friends...I guess it means :

1. Less hanging out together
2. Less talking on the phone/less sms

How about...
1. Asking U to escort me buy that?
2. Movies?
3. Trips?

How empty my life feels, when I'm about to lose all this..with U...
What was I thinking?

Wednesday, November 19, 2008


Some questions I stumbled upon when googling for other unfortunate human beings like me..

I guess the questions will remain unanswered...*sigh*

Why did we have to part while we both still care? Why did we have to suffer? Why did we have to cry when somebody said goodbye? Why did beginnings have an end? Why did we have to meet only to lose in the end?

How is it that so much time spent loving and caring for a person can suddenly crumble to the ground? How can words of tender endearments suddenly be turned to comments of blind hatred and revenge? Why is change such a feared presence?

Where is it we go when we step outside of the comfort of familiarity? How do we recreate joy when so much is trapped beneath the rubble of failure? Where is the strength to pick up all of the delicate shards that reflect the beauty of true love?

Is there a cloth thick enough to wipe away the blood of our bleeding hearts? How can we absorb the surrounding happiness of our friends when our closest friendship has been sapped of any reminder of happiness? Why, if we still breathe, does life end until the rocky moment of acceptance? How does love end? does love end???

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Wow..that was unexpected

The title says all...

U made me realize that its all gone forever...

It has changed...everything has changed...

I didn't think it was going to be this fast..but its happening already!

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Only Hope

There's a song that's inside of my soul
It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again
I'm awake in the infinite cold
But You sing to me over and over and over again

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands
And pray to be only Yours
I pray to be only Yours
I know now you're my only hope

Sing to me the song of the stars
Of Your galaxy dancing and laughing
And laughing again
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that You have for me over again

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands
And pray to be only Yours
I pray to be only Yours
I know now you're my only hope

I give You my destiny
I'm giving You all of me
I want Your symphony
Singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs I'm giving it back

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope

Friday, November 14, 2008

New phone, Cameron Trip, I miss him

1. New phone

I bought a Sony Ericsson K770i. Love it. Bought it with him. My 1st Sony phone after using Nokia all this while. Let's hope its better.

2. Cameron Trip

BTA wave 4 organized a 3 days 2 nights trip to Cameron last 2 weeks. It was so much fun. Went to Boh Valley, Strawberry park, Cactus Valley. Good get-away trip!

3. I miss Him

After some time,today I cried again. Just miss him so much. Even though it was just 2 days ago I met him when we bought the phone together. Hurm...I really do miss our good times together. I used to be able to just be myself around him. Now..I have to be careful of what I say. Don't want to be saying something that I might regret. I truly miss him and my heart is sort of begging for his love again. But, its impossible. I know. Reminding myself..We're just friends. *sigh*


Monday, November 10, 2008


I am praying the days to come to get better each day...

I have this feeling that its going to be OK and WE WILL BE OK...

I have faith...